Estoy viviendo

22/10/2009

It's really nice out today

I haven’t actually blogged in a while. I think it’s time to start back up.

Today was really bland, as usual. It seems that all I’ve been doing recently is waking up, going to school, going to work, then going home. Except today, I’m not going to work because my cramps are making me vomit. I wish my mom would just stop being stupid and put me on birth control.

I just found my moms facebook, awkward.

I’m going somewhere now.

Text posted at 15:48

19/10/2009

Photo posted at 23:58

Just when I thought I couldn't feel anymore,

I felt.

Text posted at 23:57

19/08/2009

Thank you SO MUCH

All you’ve done for the past month is make me cry constantly, feel like complete shit, and worry about you not wanting to date me anymore, ever. All you’ve been doing is acting like an asshole and acting like you don’t give a fuck about what we used to have and what we could have had, and you wonder why I cry all the time.

Do you know how much you’ve managed to hurt me in the past 3 or 4 weeks? I don’t think you do. Now rather than me worrying about you not wanting me, I’m worried about me never wanting to see your fucking face ever again.

I swear to god you make me so fucking sad sometimes, but like I said that night

“even though you’ve hurt me so much, I still don’t think I’ll ever stop loving you”

Text posted at 11:48

06/08/2009

It almost feels like

I am left with nothing, again.

It’s all gone.

Text posted at 01:12

31/07/2009

So, I have a job now

I’m currently employed at Brothers Cleaners, and I looooooooooove it. Maybe I like it a little too much. It’s so chill and quiet most of the time, and my managers are cool as FUCK. (and slightly attractive too)

At CEC we never had time to sit or do anything, but now I can just sit down and relax, read a magazine and talk to Chris or Cameron about dumb shit for like 30 minutes before I have to get up again.

Perfecttttttt.

I got a check for 78 bucks today, Lol, which is good, we get paid every week son.

I need to sleep though, woke up at 6, drove all day, bye (:

Text posted at 23:03

25/07/2009

<3 bright eyes.

Video posted at 23:34

Last night I freaked myself out.

Time is not real.

FUCK.

Text posted at 16:46

21/07/2009

Again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again, and again,

and over, and over, and over, and over, and over.

I fucking hate myself.
I wish
we were cute
like we used to be.
You’re starting to love me less, I can tell. There’s no surprise there, I have bad girlfriend qualities, I forget things, I put shit off, I worry too much then end up messing things up anyway. I remember when you used to tell me I was your everything and you wanted to be with me forever. I remember when we used to cuddle in my room and watch family guy after everyone went to sleep. I remember how for the first time I actually physically felt love, it was amazing. I remember when you told me you loved me, because I was too scared to say it first.

So I’m sitting here, angry, with tears running down my face listening to Iris because that was the song you said reminds you of me, and typing this angry/sad blog.

I wish this wasn’t so hard. I hope you don’t ACTUALLY break up with me over this, that would suck. Now, I’m going to go lay down, I’m going to go to sleep, and I’ll probably sleep until my mom comes in to move me off of her bed.

I love you, Zack, waaaaaay more than you think I do.
If you get mad and want to yell at me you can call me.

Do you remember this?

“Today was a lovely day. We had some time to be alone and get food hang out. We decided to snuggle a bit and enjoy our time together. I’d give anything in the world to be able to be with you like this every day. Even better I’d give anything at all to be like that with you ever single moment. Being with you and just snuggling up or spooning you makes me feel so warm on the inside. The fact that you love being there with me and being so close and just cuddling means so much to me. That feeling we have between each other is just great. I’ve never ever encountered such compatibility and warmth and love between two people in my life. I want to keep these feelings with you. I almost wish I could just bottle up all those feelings that you make me have and save them for another time we are together and just uncork the bottle I stored them in and pour them over us so I can literally feel the love slowly roll out over us. I don’t know why I thought about that but I just wrote was I was thinking. I really don’t ever want to lose the feelings between us. It’s one of the most amazing things. I will for sure remember how you make me feel when we are together like this for the rest of my life. ♥”

Yeah, me too.

Text posted at 17:20

20/07/2009

“ Everything you do is amazing to me and I just want you to know that I’ve never had feelings these strong for anyone. „

Zack

Quote posted at 18:44

05/07/2009

Lol.

hannah es tonta: IIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNN WEST PHILADELPHIA, BORN AND RAISED, ON A PLAYGROUND IS WHERE I SPENT MOST OF MY DAYS, CHILLIN OUT MAXIN AND RELAXIN ALL COOL, AND SHOOTIN SOME B BALL RIGHT OUTSIDE OF THE SCHOOL, WHEN A COUPLE OF GUYS, THEY WERE UP TO NO GOOD, STARTED MAKIN TROUBLE IN MAH NEIGHBORHOOD, I GOT IN ONE LITTLE FIGHT AND MY MOM GOT SCARED AND SAID YOU'RE MOVIN WITH YOUR AUNTIE AND UNCLE IN BEL AIR!
I WHISTLED FOR A CAB AND WHEN IT CAME NEAR THE LICENSE PLATE SAID "FRESH" AND THERE WAS DICE IN THE MIRROR, IF ANYTHING I COULD SAY THAT THIS CAB WAS RARE, BUT I THOUGH, NAH FO GET IT, YO HOME TO BEL AIR!
I PULLED UP TO A HOUSE ABOUT 7 OR 8 AND I YELLED TO THE CABBIE "YO HOMES SMELL YA LATER" LOOKED AT MY KINGDOM, I WAS FINALLY THERE, TO SIT ON MY THRONE AS THE PRINCE OF BEL AIR!
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