Estoy viviendo

Woah

I want to make a list of something.
Infact, I think I’ll make a list or two, to compare things.

THINGS I LIKE TO DO WHILE I’M NOT HIGH

• Browse the interwebs
• Drive around
• Sleep

THINGS I LIKE TO DO WHILE I’M HIGH

• Browse the interwebs
• Ride around
• Sleep
• Eat
• Watch movies
• Play video games
• Learn
• Write/Draw

Lol, I’m a sad sad person.
I wish I could actually get motivated to do things. I wish I could do well in school and keep my room clean for more than a few days, if that. I wish I could be a better person in general, a better friend to ALL of my friends, more reliable, and shit. I wish I could play guitar really well. I wish I had a job. I wish I didn’t dissapoint everyone so much. I wish I could draw cute things. I wish I didn’t feel like I have to act like someone else. I wish I could change someones life.

I’m selfish. I’m selfish. I’m selfish, aren’t I? You think I’m selfish, don’t you?
I don’t think I’m selfish. I think I care about making myself happy. I don’t think thats selfish.

I hate that my mom thinks I’m mean to her. I wish she just understood how I speak and the way I display emotion. She thinks I’m being mean and hateful when I say things, but I’m a very sarcastic and blunt person. I’m just naturally mean, so it’s not like I’m being mean to her on purpose.

Oh dear oh dear oh dear.